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I absolutely intended to post yesterday but what had happened was we got home really late and the wifi wasn’t working so I said fuck it. 

Fair enough, am I right? Know when to hold em, know when to fold em. 

Yesterday was great for me. I woke up early and my brother and I went to the gym. He did weights and whatever else, I didn’t see because I was doing laps in the pool. 30 minutes, man was my heart pumping by the end of it. 

I went back upstairs and showered and got dolled up to go see my boys – the Pittsburgh Steelers. We did not win. It was heartbreaking because we had the right energy and it was kind of just a fluke. However it was an absolute beautiful day and I just reveled in Heinz field on a proper fall day. 

Of course, before we went to the game, brother wanted to get one of those crazy sandwiches you see in the Man vs. food shows. 

I got a salad! I felt like such a winner. The server asked me if I wanted fries on my salad because that’s their thing- they put fries on everything. I said no. 

The guy who sat is walked by as we were eating and was like “what you come here and you get a salad?!?!? What’s wrong with you!?!?!” I laughed and said “I’m on a diet.”

I wish I hadn’t said that. I wish I just could say “I make good choices for me.” I mean a sandwhich isn’t the end of the world and it was difficult to not eat one of everything on that typically gluttonous American menu, however… I’m worth it. 

 

  

I don’t have any photos of today. In had a calm day. Slept at brother’s place last night because he went to work early and I hung out waiting for a package to be delivered. 

It was delivered midday and afterwards I wanted to catch up on the 3 shows I like to follow but fell asleep during criminal minds. I was so tired. 

Tonight I went to the gym to have a session with my trainer. He was all business today- my arms are hurting. He threatened that we will soon to move to legs and I wanted to pass out then. 

I weighed myself this morning and have gained 1.3 pounds. It’s really funny. Kind of. I have cut out sugar, grains and so much non sense eating and I weigh the same. 

My mom says I’ve lost inches and I feel a little smaller but it’s nice to be reassured. 

I have to sleep because I’m just exhausted today for whatever reason. My heart and fingers are crossed that I can find work this week. That will help considerably. 

Love you.