Day 7: A Wholeo week in the bag!

Wow, I just realized today was the 7th day. A full week passed.

This is interesting because I feel two things. 1) Surprised that it’s been so easy. I know it hasn’t been all easy and there have definitely been struggles but I mean, aside from just mentally being strong I’m surprised my physical body didn’t react more to the lack of sugar, dairy and carbs. 2) I’m also disappointed that I don’t look any different. This is where I usually give up when I start to look in the mirror and see that the physical changes are never quick enough to match my mental changes.

Then I remember that changing your diet for a week really is not substantial change. Yes, I’ve fought about 30 silent battles this week, but they’re secret battles, alone in my head with nothing to show for it except the memory of not having pizza.

They say after 2 weeks you feel it, after 4 weeks you see it and after 8 weeks you’ll hear it. It feels like it happens so slowly because it 8 weeks there will be change but a drop in the bucket really. I have so much weight to lose and such a long journey ahead.

The point of the challenge this year was to make a good start into a healthier lifestyle. I could feel myself slipping uncontrollably down a mountain of fat, shame, depression and regret. I didn’t want to wake up one day and realize I was 400 pounds and that I had to start from there. I hadn’t been successful yet without the drive of a challenge or accountability of my blog.

I have been trying to eat healthy since I moved into this apartment in January. The transition was tough emotionally: coming out of my relationship and deciding to move across country and not having friends or a support system here.

There are good days and bad. The good news is emotionally I’m stable now and do not waver when I think of my ex. I think the phrase I’m looking for is: I’m finally over him. Like really over him.

That’s important because that means I’ve taken my power back. My heart was sad we broke up but my ego was shattered when I learned he was with someone else. That took a lot of self-work to build up my self esteem enough to make a 5 year plan and then to start chipping away at it!

It’s scary to know that I can work so hard for so long and sacrifice what feels like everything and let myself get out of hand and inch back to where I started. It’s happened many times.

Tomorrow starts the second week. Had I realized earlier I would have set some intentions for this week. I’ll have to do it tomorrow. Fridays are usually when I go grocery shopping so I’ll have to figure out what I need to succeed this week.

I didn’t take a picture today of anything. Instead of my salad for lunch I went to a market and got Paleo approved salmon, brussel sprouts and eggplant. It was pre-prepared so I had to heat it in the microwave, I wanted a hot wholesome meal and the salmon was a let down but the veg was delicious.

So without a pic I looked for an inspirational quote to leave you with, I think I found the perfect one.

See y’all tomorrow.